Around 7 months ago i was useless and pointless, Then i found out the girl i had always wanted, The girl i had always dreamed about, the girl i had always loved had always felt the same about me.
So i eventually asked her out.
This is my story from there, Details of my highs and my lows. Every detail shared in complete anonymity. My life. Explained for you.
I am called Suds for the purpose of this blog, Something that may become more aware as time goes on.
My partner, The only important person in my life will be referred to as Clean. This should all make sense in time. Providing you pay attention lol.
Life for me has been both easy and hard, I was an only child, Neglected, At the same time i was an only child flooded with attention. This has inadvertently effect my life as an adult, Something which will also become more apparent as time passes.
My partner is a fellow depressee, Suffering from Personality disorders caused by her neglect during childhood. In many cases our thought patterns are the same, Sometimes they are the exact opposite which can cause some problems, Thankfully we're both strong enough to see what's happening, Which means fights never last more than 20 minutes and mean nothing atall in the grand scheme of things.
Everything shall become more apparent in time though.
DISCLAIMER: I have no issues with my parents or how i was raised. My personality disorders are no reflections on my parents atall, I love my parents dearly and they love me too, I know now that both of my parents would do anything they possibly could for me, Fight to the death for me, Any misunderstandings in my life were just that, Me not communicating properly caused me to to feel misunderstood. I know now as an adult if i'd have spoken to them about half the things i went through i would be a much more mentally healthy person.
Suds xx
